What are you up too?

[Oct 24, 2013 @ 10.26p]

Yeah, just got home from some grocery shopping and.. yeah. I swear everyday I am made to feel like everything is my fault by the people surrounding me. Because we don't have a second car, why can't we get something as butter, I want something sweet to eat, why don't we have anything we "need", I want this-I want that, etc.

Im sick of the one im gonna be with the rest of my life to be making me feel like I don't do enough in any way. I haven't had a day in mind where I was able to fully relax by myself and not have to worry about a single thing. Yet everyday since I decided to move out from of my family's house I am constantly worried about bills, income, getting a second car, fixing up the current car, fixing the place we live in now, trying to finish school withgood grades, food, paying off my card and NOW your's to for things that we shouldn't have been having to pay off on, things for you, making sure you're happy, but yet nothing I do seems to be enough. You ask why I get stressed out so much and rather be away from the house.It's because it lets me breath and for a moment think that I don't have any bills or worries to care about.

I had enough. I'm glad i'm saving money on the side for myself, because I deserve a bit of spoiling to myself. I have not been able to get myself anything for almost a year to at least keep myself happy and a bit of stress free. Yet here I'm having to worry to get you this and that and yet have bigger worries to worry about so we don't end up on the street.

These days I can't even simply go to the gym to workout and get myself where I want to be as a person mentally and physically. No simply things at home is enough,

I barely have even $5 bucks left after all the bills are paid for the month and plus rent for the next to just go take myself out for some frozen yogurt. And that is depressing. Life isn't worth living if you can't enjoy the simplest of things with little or no stress.

- Angel N. ( Albuquerque, NM @ Home)